feeling super upset but i guess there isnt any point too.

sometimes i wonder where have i gone wrong as a friend. maybe yes i'm over protective my friends cause i have seen them getting hurt ad i dont like to see my friends cry or feeling lousy .

and yet first time i tried to help my best friend i got fucked up and things got hay wired.

now my another best friend say i screw things up when i did nothing wrong to him.

the girl screwed him up and yet he say i'm screwing things up for him? alright la. 

so sorry for caring so sorry for being afraid you will get hurt by the same old shit again. all the way i was there for you when she ditched you and chose a dog over you making up all sorts of excuses about this and that but yet in your eyes she is still the best compared to a friend who has been there and trying to protect you from harm. 

yeah ever since you became a freeman i know you have been busy and all we hardly meet and all. but since you already say like i'm such a shit friend then from now on i really dont want to care .

i care got wrong i dont care also got problem. seeing this friendship starting we were close and we would still joke around but now? i'm not paranoid or what but seriously . if i am such a failure friend then just leave me ok. maybe being friendless will be better also .

so no one can come and say me this and that especially when i care.

i guess i dont want anymore best friends or whatsoever cause end of the day they dont see the good things i'm trying to do or prevent .

ok my fault i'm sorry for everything . i won't interfere in your life anymore. take care my friend i know i'm not needed there for you anymore .

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at this point of time i know i shouldnt be crying like a pussy again but i really cant help it.

#borntobeafriendlessloser#

xoxo