HAPPY BIRTHDAY BROTHER  COLIN !

 know this brother coming to around 2 years i guess. yeah i WAS that kind of little sister that had to be scolded all the time and this brother is one of those that will ALWAYS scold me when i do something wrong or get into trouble . recently had a quarrel with him because of some bitch . but i guess he is finally some how over her or at least got back some of his senses ! but over all i know he always scold me for my own good so i had never blamed him even though i do get really pissed off but end of the day i really learn alot and change for the better , any way thank you for being my brother there to guide me and all. i hope you are having fun at zirca and enjoying yourself , sorry i couldn't join you guys to celebrate cause my boyfriend has tagging if not you know i will be there. once again happy 24THH birthday to you ! this post is specially for you ! ^^

WE MAY NOT BE THE PERFECT COUPLE BUT I AM HAPPY BEING WITH YOU.

SOMEONE TO ACT SILLY WITH AND SOMEONE WHO ACCEPTS ME FOR 

WHO I AM .

3 WORDS ONE MEANING 

I LOVE YOU !

though i dislike your lup sup habits and how you don't listen to me you know i still love you for who you are ,

been with you ever since the day ypu got bailed out hugging you to sleep and waking up beside you every morning makes me feel special and love i guess every girl naturally would love to see their love one before they sleep and when they wake up. i know life ain't going to be easy for both of us when you get your sentence that's why i am spending all my time with you and i really hope you understand why i get angry wiith you when sometimes you choose your games and movies over me. :(

you BETTER CHANGE! despite all your flaws i still love you dearly my baby .

you are currently playing your game again and after i stop blogging im gonna take your phone away !

heehee . took many pictures with baby today but i just posted 3 in here .

when cine today met up with quite a number of people . so i guess today is alright !

gonna sleep early as baby has to work tomorrow if not cannot wake up again . 

goodnight readers :)

xoxo 

i don't live to please you i am who i am .

DONT LIKE? your problem you can jolly well FUCK OFF ;)

pictures at town some late uploaded !

okay i got no idea what to blog but i guess cause i already uploaded pic tures so i shall think about things to blog.  this two weeks will be at baby's house cause i really don;t wanna regret no spending time with him before he goes in . even though he PISSES me off at times cause he always play his stupid game but i guess as usual i will tolerate every single thing just like before. as loving someone you have to accept teir flaws too isn't it? 

got scolded by daddy today cause i keep taking money i guess he won't be giving me money anymore.

and daddy saw baby today lol and baby damn cute keep saying later daddy see his tagging how lol i guess dad won't even bother cause after all since when do i listen to him. HAHA I AM ONE BAD LIL GIRL !

went to nex to meet jes, juline, joseph and clement .headed to mac to find qian hui. and guess who was there too? yes keith, vivien and robert .

after they settle their thing baby and i went off cause of his tagging and here i am now blogging while he is using his damn phone and ignoring me as always. feel like throwing his phone a way i swear . 

though you always piss me off i still love you stupid boy .

you don't know how much you mean to me now and i didnt expect you to be such an important person in my life either. it's been about a year since i had this feeling of being afraid of loosing someone.

but thanks you for being in my life. like i said YOU ARE A PAIN but no matter what i still love you :)

where to find such a loving girlfriend who can keep forgiving you even though you did so many shit to her???

YOU BETTER BE GRATEFUL !

and i don't know if you are reading cause you are just next to me . heh heh heh 

 whenever baby bully me i tend to give this sad face.

AWWWWWWW :(

 THE TWO SAMANTHAS !

saw sam at town with her boyfriend for the first time so glad that this sister of mine finally have someone with her too ! ^^

 ZARIUS COCONUT TREE !

this handsome boy here always look so good in pictures one day must really see his unglam !

 SMALL SMALL ZURIO!

this boy here really have to start applying advises to himself as well . but i know that i will always have this brother by my side . family will always be family regardless of how many misunderstandings we have we will always still make it up to each other . and won;t because of girl or guys we will fan lian with each other cause it is damn STUPID .

 CLEMENT THE ANGRY BIRDY !

 DE WEI MR PARANOID.

stupid plastic nose always forever calling me a merlion ! 

i look like one meh anyhow =.=

LE WOLD IS FINALLY DONE ON MY BACK.

and now it is damn itchy :(

must not SCRATCH !

okay i am gonna stop blogging now cause my AWESOME boyfriend is irritating me :(

bye readers !

xoxo

Have you ever been so afraid so loosing someone.

knowing that they will be gone physically for around 2-3 years.

knowing that he/she isnt gonna be by your side when you need them ?

not knowing what to do.

no plans at all yet you are in love with this person.

im feeling like shit i feel depress seriously whenever i think about baby i get damn paranoid and i get very afraid. yeah people might say i am stupid for falling in love with him . but loving someone is suppose to accept their flaws to isnt it? 

holding all my tears back. i really wanna explode 

friday is baby's court even if he can be bailed for one day i will also be happy 

and i will make sure every second i will next to him before he goes in .

  

i hope baby changes not for me but for himself 

and prove to me he is worth the wait and i wont be waiting in vain.

gonna take his phone and stuff on thursday and hopefully can too .

baby i miss you i hope you do too.

Thinking about so many thing at the same time. really do not know what should i do and i finally realize what the feeling is when someone is not around you will to miss every bit of the person good or bad you will stil miss the person . feeling so lost yet putting and hiding every emotion within me. hoping i will not burst and hoping i will not go out of my mind. maybe this is karma cause the same cycle has been repeating over and over again. when things are always getting better something bad is bound to happen .

i've learnt my lesson dear god please don't take anyone eles away from me any more or put them in a place where i cant see them anymore . 

this post is for those people who i am grateful for . 

time to show some appreciation.

Baby,

no words to express how much i am missing you everyday. it's been 4 days since you got caught. i miss you by my side. yes we may be always quarreling and having different views about many things. i use to always say why you so stupid and immature but in the end of the day i still love you even though you practically cheated on me and was with that bitch for a day or so i still accepted you back when you ask me for patched. now that no one is around to bicker with me and annoy me and to even piss me off i feel very lost without your presence. bi please be good inside alright and please change not for me but for your own good and yourself. i can't guarantee that i can wait till you are release cause i know you will be sentence for at most 3 years. but i promise i'll wait as long as i can and i will write to you and visit you when i can. friday i'll see you at your court i know i will break down when i see you but that is gonna be the last time im gonna see you before your sentence . i love you alright i really do . you got no idea how tough im struggling each time when i think of you . i dont ask for much i just hope you will repent. 

Korkor (Fire),

korkor in a months time you are coming out soon. a year has pass. i know i will be scolded by you for certain things i have done . but i know you still dote on me this lil sister the most. thank you for always being there and lending me a shoulder or listening ear. even though when you are inside you would write to me and give me advises and telling me to control my temper and study hard and everything. i know i always got problems and you tend to always clear my mess together with dage (xiaohei) and when i cannot clear on my own you will ask me to just keep quite for now and wait for you to come out then settle everything . though we are not blood siblings but the bond me you and xiaohei have is just so thick this bond no matter how many quarrels or misunderstandings we have we will never be separated we always find a way back to each other. maybe when you come out you will see a new me a meimei you have never seen before. going through a rough time now kor and i really dont know what to do neither do i know how to explain to you cause i now you and xiaolong buay gum with each other . but i hope on meimei's account you would be okay with him. but he is going in soon maybe you will see him before you are release and when you come out i know i would need that pillar of strength form you. really afraid to break down like last year when i lost jet. korkor counting down for you. me. xiaohei and afew others will be picking you up on your release day . i'll see you soon. i love you .

 Dage (Xiaohei)

always "bullying' me and "fighting" with me . i know you and fire's doting on me are very different. you may not show much and seem to always not care but i know you care in your own ways . i have seen you fall at your weakess and you saw me fall too. and in some ways or another we were always there for each other. just like what i said to fire i know i gave alot of problems to you two and especially you but i appreciate what you have done for me for the past 1 year plus being your meimei . love you dage .

  

 Korkor (Renjie)

it's been a long time since i saw you ! but i have never forgotten about you ! and i miss you too. even though we are the same age i know i'm still "younger" in many ways! thank you for always looking out for me. scolding me for "fishing" when sometimes i never but i know i huo gai at times heehee  :( and caring for me and seeing me when i get admitted into the hospital ! you were there pulling me up when i fell during my last break up and other rubbish stuff i did i know you nearly gave up on me this sister but nevertheless you still didn't and i am really grateful that you didnt . your birthday coming soon and mine too i really want to see you on my birthday okay ! loves.

Teddy ( Gabriel)

Teddddyyyyyy ! i used to hate you ! you know that right ? but ended up we became so close without even realizing it at times! i never onced looked at you being 2 years younger than me and i know we may have ALOT of arguments but you know i still love you right and i will always be there for you just like how you are always there for me! you are a best friend and brother anyone would ever want even though at times you may be a pain in the neck and piss me off :) though we have not been meeting as often as before i'm just a call away a text away and 4-5 mrt stopd away from you ! and you promised to be good and never leave ! better keep to that ! we have to be close just like the movie "TED" ! le THUNDER BUDDY ! 

Cloud

it's been more then a month since we had talked or met each other . but nevertheless i still want to thank you for everything you had done for me especially being there for me during the "ian" period. well i do not know if we will ever talk again or i can say even be friends again. but yeah i miss you. i hope all is well for you and everything , :) i really wish i could call you best friend again. but yeah i doubt so too. :')       

MY TWO ANGKONG SIAO SISTERS !

(Pearlyn &Samantha Leong)

i know you girls for about 2 years plus if i'm not wrong. even best we all met at cine ! with shiting, darryl, gabriel all. have to go out again like how we went to USS ! love you girls alot and please hor pearlyn ENOUGH TATTOOS le ! so fierce later scare all the boys away. i guess we 3 are fated to have AHBENGS as boyfriends due to all our body art ! heh heh !!! lovessss 

Small Small ( Adam)

oldest in the small small clan ! always looking out for me ! stalking my life when he has nothing to do and will suddenly text me how are things or asking what happen about this and that . anyway THANK YOU ! i know fire said and asked you guys to look out for me and all but i know you are doing it on your own accord cause you treat me as a sister too . i kow during that time when everyone was againest me i know you did alot for me helping me and even helping me getting nitez back as a friend cause you knew how much i was hurting when i lost him as a good friend. that situation i really don;t know how to thank you. even though now we rarely meet up or see each other i'm sure there will be chances especially when korkor is out ! and now that you are together with winnie please treasure her ! and last long ! you two have my wishes ! 

Small Small (Zurio)

Youngest of the small small clan but always forgetting that i am older than him ! always talking sense into me but he himself can't apply it to himself. and i know now you are really going through a difficult time .but i know you can pull through. and stop doing all the foolish things i dont like to see you being this way either so do the rest . all for one one for all remember ? you know i will always be there for you . nothing beats family .alwyas remember all the mottos and we are not weak ! i want to see you get through this ! i know you can !

Serangoon kaki !

(brandon , adele, raphael,keith)

i know we have all been separated. i do miss the times when we all slacked together and all. the 4 of you are all having your N levels do study hard alright ! jia you ! if there is ever a chance again for all of us to meet together again it will be good too :)

 FAG (vivien) & Nephew ( keith)

this post specially for you two ! :D among all the kiddos you and keith have been the closest to me i know we always piss each other off especially with your delays but i guess it's normal for us already. yeah we ka each other jiao wei we all admit but aren;t we still firneds LOL. you two better study ! and fag dont retain again ! i'll kill you ! meet up soon ! :)

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Juline (Yusin)

you know what i still not used to calling you juline at times:/ haha ! anyway i'm kinda surprised myself that now would be quite close haha NEVER in my life since secondary school days i would imagine this day . i know i may have been a bully or i can say being damn wa tang in school but yeah i'm glad we are friends now and all can even joke about plastic barbie dolls*you know who i'm reffering to* and can go out and all i'll see you real soon okay !!! heh heh 

 xiaolong(bby) jes , joseph , juline, shuhui 

WE ALL HAVE TO REALLY PRAY HARD FOR THE BOYS ! 

jes you got to be strong too . i know it's hard and i know every minute or which ever place you go you will think of them. i know how you feel i miss bickering with xiaolong too . but like what i learn in my hostel 

"do the crime pay the price" 

we must stand strong together okay. that's what sisters are for. even though we may not be very close but i know you are a good friend and sister . steady and all. you steady i sure steady with you .i'll meet you real soon too.

 THIS POST IS FOR THOSE I RECENTLY JUST KNOW OR CAN SAY KNOW FOR QUITE SOME TIME BUT NOT VERY CLOSE .

thanks for being my friend and for some who shared with me their problems if you need a listening ear or whatsoever you know my number you can just text me :)

Yueting , Ahting, QianHui, Elysia 

Taigong, Minsheng, Andric, Zarius , Xiaohao ,Andy, Patrick, Waiwai, Gary, Clement

xoxo

DEAR SAM WHAT SHOULD YOU DO !!!!!

omg i swear i am having a headache !!!!

sorry reader you might think i damn cb at times but i am just being straight forward 

but don't misinterpret my words either .

know the whole thing before saying or assuming things

no doubts i am worried for you now. but do you deserve my care and wait ? this is all on you now cause i did tell you what to do and what you should not do but YOU DID NOT LISTEN  now you are in trouble and i really do not know what to do or how to help you anymore . if only you listen all this could be avoided .you ask me if i would wait.? ask yourself this and touch your heart . do you deserve my wait ? will you change if i wait or go back being the same person .if you are not going to change i really dont find a point. im just being fair to you and to myself . if you are willing to change i really dont mind waiting and giving you a second chance when you come out . 

do some reflection and think about it. just to let you know i do miss you at times. but i'm waiting for a change in you so that you deserve my love and whole heart .

and now....

IAN ANG UH IAN ANG !

why your words always stop me from forgetting about you ?

maybe im just being stupid hanging in some way in another. 

we can only be friends and it will always be that way .

this fella is on the plane right now to sidney . texted him before his flight . asked him to get me a koala bear he say " you should be happy i'm bring myself back already " stupid boy. 

his words may be straight forward and hurting at times but i guess he is just like that just like me being straight forward to certain people . this boy is one hard player to get but yet a challenge at the same times. i tried for hald a year but no results no nothing. guess i ain't good enough . aint good enough to capture this player's heart . but i guess as long he is happy i am happy. 

he has his life i have mine but i never once forgotten about him . hope to see him real soon. never forgotten how he helped me before either. the days when i was at shake chilling with him around .

waiting for the 18th that's the day that he is coming back !

okay currently otp with this JEREMY !

his laughter like HEYENA ! bth sial ! but damn funny ! HAHAHAHA !

okay shall stop blogging here !

good morning and good night ! 

xoxo

PICTURES FROM JULINE AND QIAN HUI'S BIRTHDAY CHALET !

sorry people that i haven't been blogging ! 

well i guess this is gonna be quite a long post as well .

picture's shall do some talking at the same time !

me and yueting 

me and taigong 

me alvin and andy 

the girls 

me and bby 

andy me and taigong

#GROUP picture 

me and patrick

me and qian hui 

juline and me 

andric didi and me 

alvin and me 

#eugene me alvin andy 

zarius and me 

juline and me 

it was rather okay at the chalet until a certain SLUT came by . was already damn pissed off about another BITCH and yet another situation came . i dont find a point why people have to deny things that they do. dare to do there to admit . if you dont dare then what for do it in the first place. so i assume some people are just born with no brains and they live in their own little world of stupidity ! 

settle the stupid taiji and yeah i admit i started first i smack a plate of chilli onto MICHELLE WONG'S face . 

if not what continue and repeat asking what she want for how many more hours and all she say was " i don't use violence" then alright la i sayang you in another way . talk less just start .

pfftt . waste everyone's time . but what elysia said was right uh. if i was elysia i think i won't even slap her i confirm make her bleed like one slaughtered pig. 

well nothing much to say uh cause it ain't my problem from the start but this time i'm on their side for this case. 

caught up with quite afew people also and made one to two new friends like minsheng . lol joker sia all disturb uncle freddy .

TWO pictures of me and bby 

idk why but the way i see the pictures i think damn cock :/

sometimes i always ask myself why this and that . and sometimes i'm even tired of giving in ALL THE TIME. 

i am not that kind of girl who will let you do your way in fact i want things MY WAY . and when i give in DO NOT PUSH YOUR FUCKING LIMITS!

do not take things for granted . i swear one day i get damn tired i won't even want you back even though i love you . GIVE ME MY OWN SPACE AT TIMES CAN !

and things people got to know .lets put it in point form shall we ?

• i don't like to STICK with my boyfriend like contact cement 24/7 i will get damn sian
• i need my own freedom and SPACE is damn important to me 
• i don't like to give in ALL the time 
• if you don't compromise with me don't expect me to do whatever you want me to do 
• don't like my bf to always use VIOLENCE to resolve issues ( how immature can one be)
• likes bf to SAVE and not SPEND money like freeflow
• don't steal or rob 

that's all for now i guess . so hard meh ? sometimes people really need to grow up and all. how long do you want to remain a kid in that kind of mind set ? nowadays is money that keeps the REAL gangsters going not about how ai sai you are or mia sia damn big or what .

O's are coming real soon i guess i am not prepared for it either . but at least i have a back up plan . which is in january i'm gonna take up a early childhood course. dad and mum are all out for it. cause they know if i really like something i will really put i my all . can;t keep slacking and doing nothing about my life anymore .

time to really take another step of maturity into a whole new level !

okay this is all for now ! thanks for reading !

xoxo