Have you ever been so afraid so loosing someone.

knowing that they will be gone physically for around 2-3 years.

knowing that he/she isnt gonna be by your side when you need them ?

not knowing what to do.

no plans at all yet you are in love with this person.

im feeling like shit i feel depress seriously whenever i think about baby i get damn paranoid and i get very afraid. yeah people might say i am stupid for falling in love with him . but loving someone is suppose to accept their flaws to isnt it? 

holding all my tears back. i really wanna explode 

friday is baby's court even if he can be bailed for one day i will also be happy 

and i will make sure every second i will next to him before he goes in .

  

i hope baby changes not for me but for himself 

and prove to me he is worth the wait and i wont be waiting in vain.

gonna take his phone and stuff on thursday and hopefully can too .

baby i miss you i hope you do too.