THROUGH THE DARKESS DAYS I WILL PULL THROUGH

Ttimes like this i really thank those who have been standing by me be it reprimanding me ot saying i never onced listen . i know it is all for my good. but this feeling now is totally at lost. it's like i want to let go i really do i dont know what is stoping me even know there is nothing more to hold onto anymore . maybe time will tell time will tell me if i am making the choices right or wrong . heartaches but yet still stuck to the same position , i hope this will all past .

today has been a shitty day yet it ended off quite well . shitty cause i found out so many things which a certian someone has been doing and saying behind my back . well i dont know if i should be angry or more disappointed but yeah the feeling sucks big time . i dont even feel like talking to him or even bothering asking things anymore . i have been taken for granted and dear sam why are you still holding on to this shit ? someone shoud really just slap my face.

SO HAPPY TO MEET UP WITH THEM TODAY AFTER SO MANY YEARS !

thank you for today !

 met this two fellas. played maxtune and caught up with them even though they keep annoying me and saying things like i never grow bla bla bla and say i still so small

but i am glad the air is all clear is glad to have you two back into my life again .

NOT FORGETTING MY BEST BITCH !

thanks bitch for being always there for me ! i love you many many ! i really dont know what i would do without you ! BBFL !

SJY SIGNING OFF! FILMING TMR !

BYE !

Throughout those dark days

there were no light in the darkness ...

 i really give up. i really dont know what am i holding onto either. why am i holding on when i know there will never be a miracle that you would actually change for the better .

better off alone then being so stressful every single day trying not to think of the possibilities that are happening outside ,hell ya i think alot and when i say alot is ALOT !you wont know how crazy that tiny head is thinking .i am gonna give you till the end of the year and till you go in DO NOT expect me to visit you as often or write everyday as i used to . i wont be so STUPID to the extend anymore ,

i wont hope neither will i ask. if it is meant to be it will be . everyone will be tired one day all depends on oneself too . actually i know why i am back to blogging maybe cause i really cant talk about such things with people anymore people will just find me annoying or they will just say things like "I TOLD YOU ! or like "YOU SHOULD HAVE LEFT LONG AGO" and will say i stubborn and i never listen . maybe because i am the kind of person that sees the little good things of people which makes it my weakness that i forgive to easily and get made use of , hopefully i will be able to sleep through the night before i wake up early in the morning for my treatment .

gonna post some of the pictures i took at work which will actually make me feel better .

dogs are like my theraphy it gives me a relax feeling and tbh i feel more loved being with dogs then with humans , if you asked me if i would rather have a child or a dog i will tellk you i rather have a dog to be by my side , oh well .... 

 HELLO THERE

IT'S RAINRAIN THE GOLDIE AND XIOJO THE TOY POODLE

first day taking care of them as they checked in when i was on off day .

really adorable when xiojo keeps trying to climb on top of my lap and rainrain just keeps coming for

warm hugs and pats .

 different sizes

different breeds

same family

same love

SIGNING OFF SJY WITH XIOJO !

HELLO !

 Okay i know it is kinda random but i got no idea why did i ever wanted to blog again. maybe cause i have been too bored at home and there is nothing much to do but work almost EVERYDAY . and when i say everyday it is either at the SNUGGERY or filming shoots .well money is so important now that i cannot eve be bothered with certian things. i think it has been about like what 3 YEARS sinced i last blogged about my boring life . well so far it has been good, well not gonna taljk about relationships like that past cause i guess there is nothing much to talk about maybe it's still the same old shit repeating well i hope he will change really change for the better if not i would have to really atart thinking if this is what i want for my life.

ytd headed to vivo with vivien and beng and chester, actually i'm really happy despite didnt contact them for a period of time we are still friends, i mean not like anything happen but like you know when some people stop contacting you people just becomes strangers out of nowhere . and im really happy that certian friends have forgiven me and talking again. well really have to be thankful for all this little thing.

seeing myself and the past actually tbh without all those experience i dont think i would what i have today being me standing here instead of getting into trouble but talking sense into the younger ones who i care for. now i understand the pain the older ones went through whenever i had stupid issues in the past .

WELL LET BY GONES BE BY GONES!

okay so ytd went to vivo to CATCH POKEMON quite satisfide and after that watched TRAIN TO BUSAN . heart attack so much blood and all buht quite sad also . rating 5 STARS ! is a MUST WATCH !

THIS IS ABBY THE GOLDIE !

working at the snuggery really makes me happy . cause im in the environment with dogs, and that is my passion and interest . the only tiring part is when we have to do the cleaning but over all is the best job ever since i got fired at farmway there . FYI the bosses there were a bitch so it was also good that i got fired, at the snuggery i could learn much more and evern interect with people . iused to be so anti social i still am but at least i am trying ! HAHA! im trying to blog before i head to work later apparently saw the web cam and saw afew new dogs which i dont know ! have to ask the older staff questions again sometimes i feel i am so annoying asking things over and over again

og well the process of learning i guess is like that NO CHOICE LO !

ALOY AND TEDDY !

apparently this 2 hotties now ar my favourite and i will support them as long as i think they are worth supporting not forgetting Jessica Liu my NU SHEN !

the only bug about my=e wanting to support aloy cause of C i mean is not like i dont like her acting . her acting a=is good but her personaility CMI maybe i just dont like stuck up bitches and all haha but hello you might be closer to him cause of acting and all but i k]have known him since i was 13 and if we didnt lose contact probably i would be close with him to. but nah life is just not fair haha.

TEDDY IS AWESOME PERIOD HAHA

so happy that he actually followed me on instagram and even replies to my instagram comments . all i can say among all the artises i think he is the most socialble one, Bryan wong lujiang dage also another friendly yet corny chap haha.

well being a calarfare really made me open up more to people and made me able to be more socialble . i still have my bad PIQI but that is only if people make me hah *winks*

OKAY SJY SIGNING OFF !