Againest All Odds

Throughout those dark days

there were no light in the darkness ...

i really give up. i really dont know what am i holding onto either. why am i holding on when i know there will never be a miracle that you would actually change for the better .

better off alone then being so stressful every single day trying not to think of the possibilities that are happening outside ,hell ya i think alot and when i say alot is ALOT !you wont know how crazy that tiny head is thinking .i am gonna give you till the end of the year and till you go in DO NOT expect me to visit you as often or write everyday as i used to . i wont be so STUPID to the extend anymore ,

i wont hope neither will i ask. if it is meant to be it will be . everyone will be tired one day all depends on oneself too . actually i know why i am back to blogging maybe cause i really cant talk about such things with people anymore people will just find me annoying or they will just say things like "I TOLD YOU ! or like "YOU SHOULD HAVE LEFT LONG AGO" and will say i stubborn and i never listen . maybe because i am the kind of person that sees the little good things of people which makes it my weakness that i forgive to easily and get made use of , hopefully i will be able to sleep through the night before i wake up early in the morning for my treatment .

gonna post some of the pictures i took at work which will actually make me feel better .

dogs are like my theraphy it gives me a relax feeling and tbh i feel more loved being with dogs then with humans , if you asked me if i would rather have a child or a dog i will tellk you i rather have a dog to be by my side , oh well ....