" one day i'll be your bride "

i love wearing white dresses it makes me feel like i'm gonna get married . and i know who i want to get married to. guess who ? YES IT'S DESMOND LIN JI QI .

he may be a rotten cad in people's eyes but he loves me for being me. and isn't loving someone suppose to love them despite their flaws? he's not perfect but neither am i and that is what makes us special and perfect in our own way and it pisses me off whenever people want to come between us. 

well days are lonely without baby but i guess now i know that he will always will be with me as long as i am breathing and he will always be in my heart and mind. i am never alone . yes physically i am but mentally and emotionally i will be strong. two more weeks to baby's court. tmr i shall call cpc to ask if i can visit. i'm getting abit impatient already .

gonna write to baby in awhile's time. one day he will realize how much i have been doing for him .

and that day i will really be happy , it's gonna be a long time that i can hug baby again, the thought really kills . sigh , my boy i miss you . gonna do my schedule later . draw a calender using drawing block :)

shall end here .

ending a picture with baby. i miss how he always act so cool when we take pictures. but isn't he cute . i miss that smile on my face. will it ever come back ?

i miss my xiao long long long :(

xoxo

" i will be right here waiting for you "

my dear boy it's been 5 days since you are not by my side. there is so much to tell you about, i miss you terribly and i am not doing fine without you. i'm really trying to pull through this baby teach me to be strong teach me to hold on till the end. tell me that you love me tell me that you miss me. i just want to hold you in my arms again kiss your tender lips and all. is like really testing us ? stay close don't go alright? have faith and don't give up cause i did not give up on you . i'll always be here for you .

this i promise you.... 

 writing to you has become a part of my daily life. anytime anywhere i would just sit and starting writing .

even if i need to write for years i will still do .

see how much we have changed from the first day we got together till now . you weren't a mistake yet you were a gem in disguise . though we had our hard times we still pulled through and i guess this is gonna be the biggest obstacle that we are facing now . if our love is strong and true we will still grow old together :) remember we said in 5 years time we will get married and have a life on our own? i'm still holding on and waiting for this day . i hope you do too .

 be good inside baby i'm doing everything i can to help you but you got to help yourself too.

come out we start afresh no more rubbish and all just you and me. 

working hard for our future. wait for my letters and visits alright. i'll see you at court on the 13th with the rest. 

it isn't home without you therefore i make sure everything around me reminds me of you .

I LOVE YOU DESMOND LIN JIA QI !

I'LL BE WAITING 

" as much as we quarrel please note that i still love you dearly "

i really dont know how to talk to you. sometimes i just really want to vomit blood . 

i don't know what to do so that you can understand. i'm trying but i guess maybe i'm just not good enough.

each day i worry for you hopig nothing will ever happen to you . yeah this heart of mine is not totally working 100% but this heart loves you whole heartedly no matter what a dick head you are. 

please tell me what to do really cause at times i just want to give up everything. is not that i don't love you is just that i'm so tired and i don't want to be a burden to you .

i don't cry neither will i beg you if you want to go . i just want you to be happy.

but always remember i never regretted being with you .

love me , SJY . to yoU DLJQ

I FIND MY BOYS ARE DAMN CUTE AT TIMES.

im so lazy to blog so shall post pictures and type abit here and there .

this were taken on NEW YEAR. so yup late pic upload .

the youngest and the noisiest .

roy 

my right hand sven :)

xiaoken