" as much as we quarrel please note that i still love you dearly "

i really dont know how to talk to you. sometimes i just really want to vomit blood . 

i don't know what to do so that you can understand. i'm trying but i guess maybe i'm just not good enough.

each day i worry for you hopig nothing will ever happen to you . yeah this heart of mine is not totally working 100% but this heart loves you whole heartedly no matter what a dick head you are. 

please tell me what to do really cause at times i just want to give up everything. is not that i don't love you is just that i'm so tired and i don't want to be a burden to you .

i don't cry neither will i beg you if you want to go . i just want you to be happy.

but always remember i never regretted being with you .

love me , SJY . to yoU DLJQ