" i will be right here waiting for you "

my dear boy it's been 5 days since you are not by my side. there is so much to tell you about, i miss you terribly and i am not doing fine without you. i'm really trying to pull through this baby teach me to be strong teach me to hold on till the end. tell me that you love me tell me that you miss me. i just want to hold you in my arms again kiss your tender lips and all. is like really testing us ? stay close don't go alright? have faith and don't give up cause i did not give up on you . i'll always be here for you .

this i promise you.... 

 writing to you has become a part of my daily life. anytime anywhere i would just sit and starting writing .

even if i need to write for years i will still do .

see how much we have changed from the first day we got together till now . you weren't a mistake yet you were a gem in disguise . though we had our hard times we still pulled through and i guess this is gonna be the biggest obstacle that we are facing now . if our love is strong and true we will still grow old together :) remember we said in 5 years time we will get married and have a life on our own? i'm still holding on and waiting for this day . i hope you do too .

 be good inside baby i'm doing everything i can to help you but you got to help yourself too.

come out we start afresh no more rubbish and all just you and me. 

working hard for our future. wait for my letters and visits alright. i'll see you at court on the 13th with the rest. 

it isn't home without you therefore i make sure everything around me reminds me of you .

I LOVE YOU DESMOND LIN JIA QI !

I'LL BE WAITING