" WE STAND TOGETHER AS ONE HEART"

pictures were taken on the 26th of december . 

MY BABY BOY :)

MY KID BROTHER YONGSHENG :)

ROY :)

SISTER JESLIN :)

 LOVE MY THIS PIGGY 1 :)

JULINE :)

SAM, SHUHUI, MARYN

 ROY, SAM , SHUHUI 

different ages doesn't mean we can't get along with each other . many to teach many to learn.

happy moments, disappointing moments.

but we still carry on with our lives. 

okay i am too lazy to blog :/ BYE !

" when i am nice to you DO NOT take my kindness for granted. "

KUA SIMI LAN JIAO UH !!

kinda pissed off now cause i feel that i am being taken for granted by some people. alright i am not exactly angry but more disappointed cause i have been nice and now this is how people treat me back seriously too much. put your damn self in my shoes if you were me you would feel the same and best i have never been this patient. so PLEASE FOR GOODNESS SAKE do not climb all over me. i will appreciate it .

christmas was .... =/= no comments. 

wasted my whole day at nex again. 4th onth all alone and now what am i doing blogging away when my boyfriend is outside the living room watching tv .

ALRIGHT WHAT ! 

can my day get any worst. but i guess the only happy thing for me today is that 

FIRE CALLED ME MEIMEI AGAIN !!!

heehee so happy i swear ! i hope korkor is alright he doesn't seem that happy :(

okay i am gonna head to bed soon if not i won't be able to wake up .

good night everyone !!! 

xoxo 

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE !

CHRISTMAS GREETINGS FROM SJY !!

hope everyone has a great day with their love ones this season holidays. treasure those with you on this day you may not know when will be the next happy season with them. 

new year is in a few days time and SJY is going to school on the 17th of jan . this is my final shot for my future and so i got to work hard and do things right . heading to nex later on to collect the chicken for mummy and maybe pop by the arcade to see if my kids are there ! 

once again wishing everyone a merry christmas and i seriously can't wait for tmr outing :)

HAPPY 4TH MONTHSARY BABY !

it's our fourth month and i'm so thankful for you . even though this path now that we are walking is rocky with many obstacles to overcome i'm sure we will pull through like we always do. thank you for your love, your patience and tolerance i know i can be real hard to deal with and hard to please and i may be harsh to you but i still love you very much despite how you piss me off. waking up beside you every morning really makes me like i am the luckiest girl having gifts and surprises from you every now and then when you come home from work. i would never ask for another boy cause you are the best that i ever have . though you have so many flaws but i gess if you are willing to learn and change everything will go alright :)

always look forward for you to come home to eat , sleep and accompany me . i know you do try to stay awake even though you are so tired from working in the morning . 

once again baby i love you plenty . 

Baby's present for me for christmas and our 4th month monthsary :)

this was taken on the 23rd of december before christmas eve. mummy brought us to Grandma's secret at NEX for dinner and roy joined us too. i know we look stupid so don't mind us !

 My boy DESMONDLINJIAQI!

we act silly, we fight, we argue, but nevertheless this love is undying 

though we only met and got together in ONE DAY we lasted till this day 

both of us players of the past can finally settle down with a changed heart and be devoted to each other. 

MIRACLE !

#so addicted to you#

my girl my right hand :)

same pattern same character same firey temper when people make us. 

love this girl to bits despite how i hate she mia and get into unnecessary problem helping others ! :(

NEX with ADRIAN PAPAYA AND MARYN ON 24TH DECEMBER !

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO MY KIDS 

maryn . roy . vishal . yongsheng 

TO MY "FAMILY"

 jeslin .roy. adrain . shuhui . xiaofire . xhimin . juline . samantha ong 

LOVE ONES 

fire . xiaohei . zrio . adam . dan . jazreel . shermay .yvvion . renjie . ahchuan .jian xiang . minsheng . clement . jeremy . keith . vivien . andric .jaee . taigong . zarius . jessica . edwin .melvin .joanes . timo . ian .

MY BESTFRIEND 

gabriel neo ben ding !

AND LASTLY MY FUTURE HUSBAND !

desmond lin ji qi 

(XIAOLONG)

" head rush being so paranoid these few days:( "

OMG WHAT A TIRING SHAGG DAY I SWEAR ! 

i'm gonna head to bed as soon as i am done with my stuff and watch my vampire dairies.  cleared my entire room today ! AMAZING really cause since when am i ever so hard working to clean my room so it's a miracle ! so PROUD of myself ! haha :)

headed to NUH in the morning for my eye check up and i became a stupid experiment cause they don't know hat to do with right eye i am kinda cared that i will really go blind :(

HOW HOW HOW ?!?!?!? 

have been going to NEX almost every single day so pathetic right and it's damn sian :(

spended time with my kids, maryn, yongsheng and visha.

apparently saw robert, rapheal and cloud. the urge of me wanting to talk to cloud so badly is always there but i guess this mouth and pride of mine will never open to talk to him even though i miss him dearly .

i guess time is what everyone needs. just like me and fire korkor also now things are slowly getting better :)

okay gonna accompany my dear boy now if not he will be lying on the floor looking at our hamsters, he has to really stop talking to them like they can reply him it's kinda scary in a way .

xoxo

" TIME does not stop for anyone so CHERISH every minute you have with those you LOVE."

havent been blogging . so here i am to update about my boring and miserable life. ups and downs recently many things to settle and solve, keeping secrets and lying about certain things not knowing if i'm helping or getting the one i love more into trouble. sometimes life is just such that we want the one we love with us all the time that we are willing to do anything and all sorts of things in different extends. okay enough of saying all these unhappy stuff. i'm just happy that despite baby's background or up bring mummy still accepts him for who he is and baby is doing quite a good job helping mummy around . well can't say much for dad cause dad hasn't really seen baby so slowly and now that baby is ... sigh . i think i very funny always say dont say al the unhappy stuff but end up i still so . stupid right lol . still thinking if i should head down to nex later on. but so boring keep go down :(

MY 3 NEW BABIES !!

baby got them for me ! i was home having a bad tummy and baby went out with roy to bugis and came back with all of this and you know how cute he was being. i was sleeping and he put them all over me knowing i am a light sleeper one touch and i will wake up but apparently i got lazy even though i knew he was back home so i GEH SIAO take my own time o wake up and carried alll 3 out and told mmmy i had new "friends"

HAHAHAH my room is kinda messy now cause of the soft toys and hamster that baby and i bought the other day . oh well have to start clearing things soon ! christmas and new year is coming !!!

okaay i shall end here ! 

xoxo peeps!

" INCOMPLETE without you here "

teach me to love with patience

teach me to forgive 

teach me to endure 

pretty ladies 

me and guoming !

went to IMM for dress pick out for jaslyn and gary's wedding. satisfied with me dress ! thanks to jeslin who helped me choose. heehee PRETTY RIGHT ! i bet baby is gonna be handsome too when he wears his blazer and all . somehow i can't wait for the wedding to come ! after IMM headed down to bugis to eat STEAMBOAT i swear i was damn full ad it has been so long since i ate steamboat .

anyway thanks to baby for bringing me to eat good food nowadays .

talking about baby i miss my boy. i hope he is sleeping well. korkor abit crazy today but cannot blame whenever he wanna punish baby he will ask me to go home for his punishment cause he knows i am important to him and he wanna take me away from him :( and here i am at home BORED TO DEATH can get to sleep and all . no one to hug poor me to sleep and my nose is damn irritating luh cannot tahan de leh :(

i shall try to sleep after watching some shows and cb stupid funshion cannot use I DON'T KNOW WHY !!!! okay end here :/

xoxo

"it's the little things that counts."

ytd was me and baby's 3rd month together. time really flies and tmr joseph will be coming out already.

went to bugis ytd with baby and guoming went to watch BREAKING DAWN part 2 IT WAS AWESOME! when the CD is out i'm so gonna buy it ! 

baby bought chocolate for e and it's so pretty that i don't even bear to eat it. but i had a great day despite i was kinda pissed off that we spended don't know how long in the arcade and it gave me a damn bad headache.. saw patrick and clement at bugis . clement so cute when he botak haha .

i know teddy is gonna need me this period of time ad i promised to be there for him. what are bestfriends for right . i got no idea what to blog oh well i guess gonna bathe and then head ot back to beach road. tummy isn't doing very well though :(

xoxo

" despite all the quarrels we have know that i'll always be here "

back home from my boy's house . hope he is doing fine on his first day of work. gonna blog and watch glee an vampire dairies until i'm tired and i shall take my nap .

bby has to really learn how to think, always get scolding from korkor my heart also pain but what korkor say makes sense and it is what i have ALWAYS been saying but nothing seems to get into bby's head. sigh . hope as time goes he will grow mentally and be more mature 

daddy called today to ask how is my eye sight and i had breakfast with mummy and chit chat with her . i guess after knowing so many things about my real self i tend to change abit for the better too .

ohh yeah i don't know to be happy anot but texted fire and he replied even though he was asking me about something eles but i am still happy.
if miracles do exist my biggest wish is that fire and bby will forget the past and stop putting me in a spot to choose between them  sigh

thank god for bby's court post pone too! have another one month to be with baby and our 3rd month is in two days time ! Gary an Jaslyn;s wedding also coming already still need to try on dress and all . can't wait somehow. caught up with teddy and jeremy ths week already so i guess there are still quite a number of people i have to catch up with. and people i didnt forget anyone okay i might just be kinda busy with afew things and all. okay shall end here for now !

xoxo

" To COMMIT is to SACRIFICE many things you DON'T want to LOSE."

mentally. motionally and physically crushed that sometimes i tend to hit myself vigorously. never been this sane in my whole entire life. i really don't know what to do anymore and even at times i just want to give EVERYTHING UP. 

pointless and going nowhere . that boy's attitude, temper and true colors are coming out already and i can't tolerate it. many times i wanted to smash him yet in the end of the day i still break down and cry and him not knowing how painful it is within. 

sometimes i wonder how muchmore selfish can he be. i have reasons not ltting certain people do certain things and for his case is because they ar not good for him yet he doesn't see the good intensions i have yet he turns them into restrictions. it's not about a hug or a kiss that can solve everything even a simple sorry doen't help at times . oh well life has been cruel . i wonder when will god take me away .

i tried 2 times yet he wantd me to continue living in this world. seriously i had enough torture.

currently at home, and i am feeling quite relax more than ever then i was at beach road. 

i smll freedom coming in afew days time but also sadness and loneliness at the same time.

really don;t know how to feel i guess after blogging im just gonna take a nap and sleep it all away for awhile. i realy miss my bed no doubt so much more comfortable then a fucking tidum. 

home alon isn't as bad as i thought it would be. mum's at the centre and she will only be back by 5 ..

okay shall stop here for today .

xoxo

"Never thought i would have such a life. the only way i can continue in life is to deal with it and accept it."

my mind is in a whirl after hearing truth about my life i am really speechless yet somewhere deep inside me is telling me i should be grateful and change for the better . i guess after ytd my life has to be changed.

it's hard i admit i really wanted to end myself but as i thought about it i guess im one grateful bitch that has been given this life not just once but actually it's already my third . escaping from death twice yet i'm still behaving like shit i must be ashamed of myself . 

lost fire and company i guess due to the way i was and partly was also the past problems fire and baby had with each other. no doubts i miss them i miss my brother fire. but life still has to go on. yeah i was to dependent on them i guess it's time to grow up in a way and count on myself .

anyway i hope justine and jazreel are okay . my condolences to them . i really pray they stay strong i know it's not easy as easy as it is said.

mummy is finally discharged from the hospital and yeah have been back home for dinner with baby and helping mummy around with the house work and chores. now i know how tiring doing house work can be. 

but enjoyed cooking with mummy and baby and eatig the food we had cooked. feels so blessful :)

  

this boy of mine really pissed me off almost everyday. recently have been many quarrels almost causeing each other to end this whole relationship. i guess it's kinda surprising how two of us can still last till now as both of us were "players" before we got together, but no doubt i love him despite all the shit i have to go through like loosing my friends and all . he may still act like a kid but i know he loves me just as much as i love him and yeah i know i ave to be prepared that he is going in and i am gonna be outside here without him. i'll wait as long as he keeps to his promise that he will change. no regrets . boy i may not know how long we will last but i promise as long as you are trying i will stay .

love at first sight? or maybe it's just fate :)

TEDDY IS FINALLY OUT !

he has no idea how happy i am and i really can't wait to see him again .

i miss my silly bear . he is my best friend and brother the one who has never left me despite the quarrels and arguements with have over things and people.

teddy if you do read my blog PLEASE BE GOOD ALRIGHT !

i dont wanna see my precious teddy going in again !

okay i shall end here i got to go off soon !

xoxo

Everyone has a past we can either leave it behind or remember it for life.

people do bear grudges but how long can one hold it in?

it will just make one simply miserable and pathetic

SORRY PEOPLE THAT I HAVENT BEEN BLOGGING! 

did anyone miss me? haha . have been rather busy spending time with my baby . time is never enough with him. today went to court and yeah i did pray that baby's court could be postpone and thank god he has another 18 days with me. yeah this is the second court hearing but yet i have never been prepared for him to go in. i guess i can't accept the fact that he has to go in and all. sigh but this is life not everything goes the way we want it to be.  

 yes we quarrel we fight do all sorts of shit together but no matter how pissed i am with him i can never get mad at him for long. 

 my siam kia cute anot? 

MINE !

not to be shared with unless you want to get a punch from me :)

I wonder how is teddy doing inside. heard that he has lost 5kg ever since he went in. though i am kinda pissed off that he lied to me that he is together back with yu hong but i guess as long as my best friend is happy i will be happy for him as well.

just as before your silly bear is waiting for you to come out just like last year when you were in DRC. i guess you damn sway or i can say fated to be with that fucking ROLEX on your leg !

okay i'm gonna end off here gonna sleep soon anyway later SJY will be at town ! catch me there if you do see me !

xoxo . 

I would  never ask for another boyfriend cause to me you are already the best.

havent been blogging lately have been staying at baby's house ever since he got bailed out. and now that his bail is extended till 2nd november i will be continuing to stay here but of course i will go home once in awhile.

kinda angry right now thanks to my damn father . say want pass me money end up never . no need go for appointment all already . no need go out also starve to death sua. still say before he go will pass money . lan jiao wei as always and every year my birthday coming he decides to fly off for work or whatsoever. whatever la i have gotten use to it also not the first time anyway .

if only i could be a kid again when i could everything and anything i wanted when i just ask.

MOOD HAS BE DAMN BAD LATELY :(

venting anger and throwing tantrums especially at my boy. i feel bad uh but sometimes really cannot control 

woke baby up in the middle of the night to cook for me cause i was so hungry :( and despite how tired he was he still woke up. which boyfriend would do that they will probably just be pissed off or something .

though baby does  make me angry with many things like his actions and thinking but he is the sweetest to me . giving in and all. if i were a guy i would not want to be with me cause i suck my attitude and temper sucks. 

but oh well i am happy  with my boy regardless of what .

i dont care what others think or say it's my relationship anyway i no need anyone to be happy or what .

got to treasure every minute with him cause honestly till now i am still not prepared for him to go in .

but still i will be strong anyway . 

xoxo

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BROTHER  COLIN !

 know this brother coming to around 2 years i guess. yeah i WAS that kind of little sister that had to be scolded all the time and this brother is one of those that will ALWAYS scold me when i do something wrong or get into trouble . recently had a quarrel with him because of some bitch . but i guess he is finally some how over her or at least got back some of his senses ! but over all i know he always scold me for my own good so i had never blamed him even though i do get really pissed off but end of the day i really learn alot and change for the better , any way thank you for being my brother there to guide me and all. i hope you are having fun at zirca and enjoying yourself , sorry i couldn't join you guys to celebrate cause my boyfriend has tagging if not you know i will be there. once again happy 24THH birthday to you ! this post is specially for you ! ^^

WE MAY NOT BE THE PERFECT COUPLE BUT I AM HAPPY BEING WITH YOU.

SOMEONE TO ACT SILLY WITH AND SOMEONE WHO ACCEPTS ME FOR 

WHO I AM .

3 WORDS ONE MEANING 

I LOVE YOU !

though i dislike your lup sup habits and how you don't listen to me you know i still love you for who you are ,

been with you ever since the day ypu got bailed out hugging you to sleep and waking up beside you every morning makes me feel special and love i guess every girl naturally would love to see their love one before they sleep and when they wake up. i know life ain't going to be easy for both of us when you get your sentence that's why i am spending all my time with you and i really hope you understand why i get angry wiith you when sometimes you choose your games and movies over me. :(

you BETTER CHANGE! despite all your flaws i still love you dearly my baby .

you are currently playing your game again and after i stop blogging im gonna take your phone away !

heehee . took many pictures with baby today but i just posted 3 in here .

when cine today met up with quite a number of people . so i guess today is alright !

gonna sleep early as baby has to work tomorrow if not cannot wake up again . 

goodnight readers :)

xoxo 

i don't live to please you i am who i am .

DONT LIKE? your problem you can jolly well FUCK OFF ;)

pictures at town some late uploaded !

okay i got no idea what to blog but i guess cause i already uploaded pic tures so i shall think about things to blog.  this two weeks will be at baby's house cause i really don;t wanna regret no spending time with him before he goes in . even though he PISSES me off at times cause he always play his stupid game but i guess as usual i will tolerate every single thing just like before. as loving someone you have to accept teir flaws too isn't it? 

got scolded by daddy today cause i keep taking money i guess he won't be giving me money anymore.

and daddy saw baby today lol and baby damn cute keep saying later daddy see his tagging how lol i guess dad won't even bother cause after all since when do i listen to him. HAHA I AM ONE BAD LIL GIRL !

went to nex to meet jes, juline, joseph and clement .headed to mac to find qian hui. and guess who was there too? yes keith, vivien and robert .

after they settle their thing baby and i went off cause of his tagging and here i am now blogging while he is using his damn phone and ignoring me as always. feel like throwing his phone a way i swear . 

though you always piss me off i still love you stupid boy .

you don't know how much you mean to me now and i didnt expect you to be such an important person in my life either. it's been about a year since i had this feeling of being afraid of loosing someone.

but thanks you for being in my life. like i said YOU ARE A PAIN but no matter what i still love you :)

where to find such a loving girlfriend who can keep forgiving you even though you did so many shit to her???

YOU BETTER BE GRATEFUL !

and i don't know if you are reading cause you are just next to me . heh heh heh 

 whenever baby bully me i tend to give this sad face.

AWWWWWWW :(

 THE TWO SAMANTHAS !

saw sam at town with her boyfriend for the first time so glad that this sister of mine finally have someone with her too ! ^^

 ZARIUS COCONUT TREE !

this handsome boy here always look so good in pictures one day must really see his unglam !

 SMALL SMALL ZURIO!

this boy here really have to start applying advises to himself as well . but i know that i will always have this brother by my side . family will always be family regardless of how many misunderstandings we have we will always still make it up to each other . and won;t because of girl or guys we will fan lian with each other cause it is damn STUPID .

 CLEMENT THE ANGRY BIRDY !

 DE WEI MR PARANOID.

stupid plastic nose always forever calling me a merlion ! 

i look like one meh anyhow =.=

LE WOLD IS FINALLY DONE ON MY BACK.

and now it is damn itchy :(

must not SCRATCH !

okay i am gonna stop blogging now cause my AWESOME boyfriend is irritating me :(

bye readers !

xoxo