" To COMMIT is to SACRIFICE many things you DON'T want to LOSE."

mentally. motionally and physically crushed that sometimes i tend to hit myself vigorously. never been this sane in my whole entire life. i really don't know what to do anymore and even at times i just want to give EVERYTHING UP. 

pointless and going nowhere . that boy's attitude, temper and true colors are coming out already and i can't tolerate it. many times i wanted to smash him yet in the end of the day i still break down and cry and him not knowing how painful it is within. 

sometimes i wonder how muchmore selfish can he be. i have reasons not ltting certain people do certain things and for his case is because they ar not good for him yet he doesn't see the good intensions i have yet he turns them into restrictions. it's not about a hug or a kiss that can solve everything even a simple sorry doen't help at times . oh well life has been cruel . i wonder when will god take me away .

i tried 2 times yet he wantd me to continue living in this world. seriously i had enough torture.

currently at home, and i am feeling quite relax more than ever then i was at beach road. 

i smll freedom coming in afew days time but also sadness and loneliness at the same time.

really don;t know how to feel i guess after blogging im just gonna take a nap and sleep it all away for awhile. i realy miss my bed no doubt so much more comfortable then a fucking tidum. 

home alon isn't as bad as i thought it would be. mum's at the centre and she will only be back by 5 ..

okay shall stop here for today .

xoxo