deleted every post that used to me posted . gonna forget everything that happened .

living one day at a time. though it is not gonna be easy and it's gonna hurt but there is no other place.

i've regretted what i done but time is running out for me and even some others. maybe by the time i'm gone some of them havent forgive me yet. this is all pre destined . it's not a matter of choice but it's plain fate .

i thank those who have been there for me like mika, sharon, zurio.

im sorry those i had disappointed . especially my dage, each time i see our pictures i just could stop but cry .

i failed you as a sister you were always there clearing up my mess but ths time i really made a big mistake i'm so sorry . i dont know when you will ever forgive me but i know i dont deserve your forgiveness either.

i know jaee has his own methods in doing things and caring. i didnt see that till now. i havent been truthful with him either for those past weeks. i dont deserve you either . i hope you'll be fine tmr . i'm really happy that you are taking you photography seriously . al the best alright.

everyone is going in or leaving . got to be independent on my own . to be alone or go anywhere or do things alone.i have to stop depending on others on everything.

thursday will be visiting korkor with timo . gonna apologize and confess all the shit i have done . it's gonna be hard to say sorry cause i didnt want to disappoint him either but i did anyway .

even if he decides to cut ties i deserve it too. 

have been staying home the whole day just to weak to even go out or go to school. those going to avatar and those who asked me to go im sorry i wont be going .

to those going to be enlist tomorrow like zurio, yutat, louis and faiz all the best . when you book out i'll see you guys around. 

to my brother small small zurio.

this post specially for you . i know you have been hurting on you own for some time already.

cheer up alright. im here for you too like you were there for me even though you know the shit i have done.

tmr you are enlisting already . we will still be contact alright . you know i will be waiting for you to book out so we can hang out and party again. everything in life now sucks for the both of us. but we will try to hold on cause we got each other and remember what we promised to hang on also for fire's sake. it's not easy going through this hurts but i know we can do it somehow. i myself is not confidant but i will try with what i have left. you know im a phone call away. this few weeks we have been close maybe cause of the unhappiness we have in our life. the lightness will cover up out darkness soon in our hearts, love you zurio ! forever that brother i will always look up to at times even though you are younger than me ^^

got to study hard now and stop thinking about other stuff already 

oh ya another thing is i'm glad ian's court got postpone!

okay heading out to meet boi ! bye!